Santa-My dear Will

“Santa?” I ask. “Or should I hold your dear deer while you complete your work? I mean, the Reindeer?” I looked at the oddly angry animal pecking right at me to which I simle and say, “ Why should you take in all the Christmas glory with your beautiful appearence, while the poor little Santa just work huh? ” I wink at Santa asking him to clamber down those chimneys while I promise to hold his dear Reindeer for him.


As he leaves me behind with his sledge and the goodly animal, I wonder how he manages to grow chubby year by year, from December to December. With his silver white beard touching his hip he hops down the chimney where he places the gifts near the beautifully decorated fir.


“The beautifully decorated fir-trees are the heart of beauty  in any house, Santa” I speak to the lonely dark sky which is painted blue with millions of speckled dots over them. “These trees are now decorated with all gifts,stars and candles that would delight any kid for that matter of fact, and their dark-green branches murmur the Christmas hymns ever since they were planted in the house.”

“Santa, wouldn’t it be aweome if even I get my dear Christmas present ? ” I ask as he comes outta the roof. “And all I want is a tiny little ride along with you in delivering the gifts “, I say. Hugging me into furry cap and kissing me with his rosy lips he said, I could. And then, we few past the houses and across the forests of fir from one house to the other. Oh! How the sound of world sleeping below seems so glories at this every moment, except for an angel-face shines gladly down from every golden star.

As the music reaches my ears, there I see her, an Angel carrying a boat of dreams along with her which leans and trimmers due to the weight of those dreams that she attempts to carry till their cot every night. “Oh! Poor sailor, please stir her well” I shout back the dear Reindeer.


As I peep in at the skylight, I see the moon sheds tender twilights across the dark telling me its almost time now and the snowflakes began to shower down at us, and I fear if someone set this on purpose for our team was so fast. “Take care, Santa. Don’t fall down” I scream as we got down the roof to continue our mission.


As we completed our day’s task and were to leave, we saw him. A tiny boy crying by side the window seeing the Santa! And there went the chubby hero to protect the little heart. “Though you behavior is crusty, you still have a good heart. Your eyes glisten when you see anyone sad my dear. So here’s your gift for making people happy” , said the dear little Santa as he handed over his gift to him.


Chirrup! Chirrup! There we heard a patter of soft footsteps and clatter of a child’s voice. “Speed up Reindeer”, I heard dear Santa scream as we moved up the hill.! “Merry Christmas, little people” I heard him say as the joy-bells rang in every steeple. And in this way, I’ve had my own sweet will come true.!

A new story ;)

Here is a warning before you start reading it further. This post is really very lenghty and huge.! Longest of all i have ever posted.! If you have patience you can read it. And its a love story. Complete love story. So spare me if you'r not a love bug..!

And I dedicate this post to only person who wanted me to write this.! I hope that person enjoys it as much while reading it.


“Gloomier day with even gloomier people around”, she thought scanning the crowd wondering what’s with them as they all looking at her. Irritated she sat down under the tree and opened her copy of “Particle Chemistry” and began reading it. Just then, he came and sat beside her.

“Hey Anne, what’s with you?” he asked her as if he exactly knew what was troubling her. She was expecting him to come there. May be a little latter but he was quick enough to find her. Sighing, almost to herself she said: “Uh huh, Luke. Nothing at all.”, She replied back not looking at him. Not looking at him while she spoke made it very clear that she was lying.

“Spill the beans baby, you aren’t smart enough to lie to me” he said with a twinkle in his eye. He leaned forward and took her hand in his and kissed her fingers one by one. He knew it was one such a habit that thrilled her always. She leaned back and rested her head on his shoulder to comfort herself. “Stay with me always, will you?”, she asked him helplessly staring at his hazel eyes which looked back at her with the same intensity as it did the first time they met.

Pulling her rather more close to himself, he played with her fingers. “Not a chance honey, I want you all for myself”, saying this he drew himself close enough that he could now feel her breath on his chest. Bending down, he kissed her enough till it lingered his lips. Then looking back at those beautiful eyes he almost got lost in them.

“Luke? We’re be late for the ball if you keep staring at me this way” she said almost laughing bringing him back to his senses.

“I’ll be waiting in the dorm for you, Anne.” He said with a smug in his face that said almost everything.

“You seem to take every damn advantage of we being the prefects, Luke. We share a common room together and you know every one envy’s us, don’t you.?” She spoke ruffling his hair.

“I do. And let them be. It doesn’t bother me. You please get dressed fast, I can’t wait to see you in the gown” he said pulling her off her feet so she could face him. They held their hands together and walked past everyone through the dorm to the common room they own being prefects.

The common room the prefect's owned, had two doors on the either side, with their names engraved on the doors. With a huge bookshelf that stood right in the centre, and there stood a chimney where they could warm themselves from the bitter cold. Luke, being a guy he got a room which was painted blue. In the centre sat a huge circular bed which had a black linin over it. On the dark Persian blue wall, stood a huge guitar that personified his personality. While on the other side, Anne’s room was painted purple that reflected her purity and feminine nature. Her rectangular bed had the same similar purple bed spread. Her room was rather decorated with a number of her own paintings she ever drew in her time time.

“Anne? How long will it take.?”, asked Luke maybe for the hundredth time that evening.

“Uh Luke, I may get a little more late. Don’t mind please go check the arrangements till then” she replied back from the closed door that read “Anneliese”.

“Anne, the ball’s gonna begin in half an hour. Please make it fast dear. I’ll be waiting for you in the hall”. Having said this he left the common room.

Still not satisfied with the dress she wore, she began to dig her shelf for another dress that could please her this evening. After digging the whole shelf into the bed, she found it. A black plain off-shoulder gown that exactly showed off her sexy figure. She wore a little make up and pulled her hair into a bun leaving a little strands of hair fall on her face. Finally, pleased with herself she walked outta the room.

After getting outta the common room, she found every guy starting at her. There was nothing to doubt that, she looked at most sexy and even she knew it. All she wanted to see was Luke’s reaction seeing her. And to just know that, she walked past everyone towards the great hall. Even though she was walking, her eyes were eagerly searching for the only one she ever loved.

Petrified by her beauty and elegance, he stood there staring into her brown eyes. “You..You..You look BE-AU-TI-FUL” he blurted out.

She smiled at him. Walked towards him, and took him by her hand. “common, my prince. Everyone’s waiting for us.” She whispered .

“ Not so early, my dear. Not until I get the price for having being so patient” he teased her moving his hands up and down her arm. Leaning forward he surprised her planting a playful kiss on her lip.

“What was that for?” she asked equally surprised taking in his aroma.

“ That- was for me, price for being so patient”. Having said that he slipped in her arm into his and lead her through the crowd.

They were the first to start the ball that night. He moved her in small circles moving his fingers playfully into her curls. “Anne, I never wanna stay without you.” He said looking into her eyes which reflected nothing but truth. She said nothing but just held him more closer to her and rested her head on his chest. They danced all night, holding the other. They were in the ball room till late midnight. Tired, they moved to their common room. To protect themselves from the freezing cold, Luke burnt a few logs in the fireplace and they sat there holding the other’s hands sharing the warmth.

She was sparkling golden because of the flames that kept the room warm. And she looked even more beautiful here he realized. He kept staring at her for a long time trying to absorb in everything. He leaned forward and brought her into a slow, deep kiss which grew into a hot, hungry kiss. They kissed till they struggled hard to breathe. Taking in air he again kissed her, but this time a slow and lingering kiss. He freed her hair off the bun letting it fall down her shoulder. He dug in fingers deep inside her hair and looked directly into her and spoke.

“Anne, I wanna make love to you” he whispered into her ear which brought in a million emotions. She held him close and whispered, “ No one’s stopping you my dear prince”.

“ No backing off my dear, not at all” he teased and he began kissing her eyes and check. He kissed her along her throat and when she moaned he glued his lips on to hers once again. She began undoing his button and threw it on the floor beside. She touched his bare chest with her palm and enjoyed his masculine presence. He scooped her in his arms and took her into his room. He brushed her arms slowly marvelling at how soft her skin felt. He cupped her face in his hands, kissed her deep. “I love you, Anne” he whispered and drove into her as she groaned with pleasure. She kept murmuring his name as she rested her head over his chest. She felt good. May be more than just good. She felt awesome being his, his completely. Tried and exhausted both fell asleep holding each other. As the morning sun came into the room, he got up to realize she was still asleep. He felt good seeing her asleep. He always slipped into her room early in the morning to see her sleep, but today it was something different. Today she was asleep on his bed, right beside him. And it somehow made him feel awesome. “I’ll do anything to just see you see you beside me when I am awake every moring, and its a promise my dear princess” he muttered to himself kissing her forehead.

As she woke up, she caught him looking at her. Seeing his shove this much love she felt satisfied. “ He is so perfect” she thought. “ Completely perfect and completely mine” leaning forward, she looked into those mesmerizing eyes of his. “I Love you, Luke” she said and he held her in his arms pleased with himself.

A story of an abstract

Bright,colourful and nothing less than what one was imagining it to seam like. With all the figures jumping into life., some were circles, while there were triangles and polygons trying to make their very existance alive it was getting diffucult to understand what was happening. A blend of blue and green told it all. They were the best to compliment each other they told, and will show case the best. May be they really did.

"Huh., whats this?" , he asked me looking almost surprised with my painting.

"Eh.? This.? Well, its a hexagon" i replied wondering whats really wrong with his head

"well,I know its that. I asked what does it imply in your painting.?", he told half convencing himself.

"Oh. wait till i'm completly done, can you?" i replied and got back to my painting glad to have some time to actually wonder what the hell was i drawing.

What is it,I wondered. I still dint get it completely. What the hell am I gonna to tell to all those who ask me what does my sketching signify..!Being honest, it just had nothing in it. Just a mix of few bright colours, a few symbols and shapes and a little brain to put them right. And there I was, With my master piece.!! (Or atlest i thought it was).

"But what am I gonna tell any one who asks me what the hell does it signify?", I wondered. And just then i thought of it."There is a guitar, tune that plays outta it, and, and people dancing and a few crazy math symbols and figures", I recollected sitting and staring at the abstract i drew. "So what.? what next.?"

It was then I decided I would tell anyone who came by and approached me about the painting that it was an abstract that shows how one dances to maths when he finds it as easy as a tune thats played on a guitar.. "Yeah. this is right" i decided and then I handed it over pleased with myself..

And who ever wondered that some peice of an art that looked no less than the effect of math in the taree zameen par style would win the competition..? Not me.! But I won it..And somehow I am pleased with myself after ages.! Feels good to see it all happen .. And this is it., A story of an abstract..

A letter to nobody

Here I sit all to myself where the weather is gloomy but the people around are even more gloomy..! nothing is actually interesting me these days and I’m really BUGGED to be real short. Looking at the  almost grayish tee(at least to my eyes), I wondered what that person meant by calling it a “bottle green tee”.

Yet, everything seems so awesome about that tee. Maybe., just maybe that person who sent it to me knew it pretty well that it’s the only thing that’ll make me happy. And yeah,they just did it. “Life is sexually transmitted and terminal”, and I really wonder what did that mean..! ;) Whatever it is., I’m trying my best to find happiness from all the tiniest things. My semesters are DONE and the worst part is that it just doesn’t seam so. I wanna enjoy yet I donno what to do so I can feel better. I’m irritated I’m feeling jobless at home. I just have nothing at all to work or do. Read your subjects ,says dad as if I have been given holidays for that damn thing atm. I have to enjoy god damn it..! wonder if anyone will at least understand.!


“Mr.Loneliness ,(she screamed out to the gloomy weather so loud hoping that anyone will listen to her)
Sir,I am all irritated. I donno if this is because I’m missing chmiley way  too much that i'm totally downed in it or is it because I’m bugged people don’t give me, my damn freedom. Everything seams to be frustrate me, Sir. More than anything I’m feeling real lonely sir. Who can know this better than you, yourself.? I just somehow missing talking to him, its been almost a week since I last spoke to him, sir. I planned to write a story sir, like you know. But somehow I’m too sad to even write it. Its sorta taking everything outta me. Tears roll down my eyes for god knows what reason.

And sir, I hate it when people take me for granted. And its pretty sad that my dear busy bee is doing it. Is he ignoring me.? Maybe not. He is just taking me for granted! And this is something I hate the most. Yet, know what’s hurting me the most sir? It’s the feeling I’m having atm. I feel so useless and I donno what exactly am I supposed to do to get rid of this feeling. I’m missing everything. And I feel as if everything is being taken away from me.

It’s a humble request from me to you, Mr.Loneliness, that you please take this feeling away from me. Sir, I have promised someone very dear to me that I’l never be sad. But sadly it isn’t working now. Its my request to you that if you help me reduce this feeling, I can keep up my promise of always being happy and smiling sir.


I don’t like tears my self sir, I freak at any one who has them in their eyes and I give a damn to them. I don’t wanna do the same to myself sir, I don’t want any one think I’m useless and that I cry for every damn thing. Sir, I don’t cry for every small thing. When things get really out of control and I just can’t take them anymore I get irritated. When this irritation increases beyond myself creating problems to others, I start crying so that I control myself sir. Please do understand my situation sir. Its my humble request. I hope you’l listen to it at the earliest.

Yours faithfully,

A lil gurl who lost her smile”

After having finished the letter, she cried cursing herself for having done it. Yet, she had no other choice than doing this. She wanted to cry out to her hearts and feel better for she thought this was the only way to do. She neither wanted to scream at others nor did she want to blame any one else. *sigh*. All she wanted Is to getting back all that she missed, people she missed. She wanted to at least smile once whole heatedly for she is tired taking this any longer now.

# 3 : Flying Away..

There she sat, sad and expressionless. The room seamed all the more gloomy with her presence in there although the weather was bright and clear. "Everything seams to be just so perfect" she said looking at the deep blue sky filled with millions of fireflies. "*sigh* but except my life!!" Still watching those consant stars she asked them, " They say that you shine down to watch us smile., and when we don't,you see our lives and you weep for us." "Do you really do that..? Do you really weep for us..? Are you weeping for me now.?" she asked helplessly to the bright twinkling stars who seamed to be really very happy that night.. Tears from her eye drove her to that place where she was all happy., where he was still a part of her. Where she was all happy. And in a fraction of second it seamed like the history was repeating itself..

Of course they were unique. Not for the relation they shared but for the reason that both feel in love(or may be this is what they felt it was) with each other without even knowing anything about the other.How could they get commited without even knowing eachother properly., everyone wondered. But just like their individuallity, even their realation reamained a mystery to many. Yeah., they did have good times. May be great times would be better in their case. But the bad times always beat the good one's anyday( like I mentioned., its a unique love story).!!Yet, they did manage to make it " move on ". But may be it was just outta hands this time as it just isn't possible to tighten those loose threads. Their tastes ever poles apart., they were both too fast for each other, none wwas understanding, to each their self respect meant more than anything, neither did their compatabilities match nor did their decissions. Love to them merely meant to praise one's self and let the other know how fortunate he/she is to have them in their life. Yet, they were in love. Of course the guy was a better option than the gurl as he did compormize with situations many times unlike the gurl.

Peeking out of her bed room window she wondered if its all her mistake for all the things that are taking place in their life. She immedietly dismissed that thought from her head as she could never imagine that she could ever be wrong." No " she thought. " I can't be wrong. Its his mistake." she tried convencing herself. " should I ask him for a sorry?" ," May be no, Why should I..? If he wants me he has to come to me." The gurl was very egoistic. And not this she was too proud to accept things. She had a lot of attitude and self pride, which she would never give up for any one even if the mistake was hers.And in most cases, these with later become the only reason for the break up as the other person can never take it any longer. And in here, may be this what happened..

Wiping her tears off her face., she decided something which may be she should have never done it." I did ask him what the problem to which he dint care to reply. Now its my turn." saying this she texted him a note which seamed something like this:

" Steve, anne here.! Its not that I haven't tried finding whats wrong with you. But may be you just lost interest in me, may be you were just faking the whole thing. May be this is it."

"But anne , there must be a way to solve this. lets figure stuff out together."

"Nope.I don't want to. I want to end this relation Steve. This is it.!"

With that she ended the relation she shared with the guy she loved( to what she thought). "He isn't worth me, else he would have appologized", she said tried to convence herself.! "I had enough.! I lost my freedon staying with someone like him.I can do what i wish to do now.! Fly my thoughts high up in the sky,and to do this I don't need anyone by my side.!" she said. "Its time I transform into a butterfly from a catterpillar, And FLY away.."she mentally decided and let his thoughts out of her way..

# 2 : Expressions.

All that was happening was somehow very difficult to take in all at once, for the worst and dizziest night mares were zapping back to reality. She dint still want to accept all that was taking place as real. She was happy to think that he would return back any moment and greet her the same way he used to do. ‘good morning, Honey’, her ears wanted to hear those words like how she used to every morning. She missed the way he made her feel special, she missed the way he curdled her, she missed the way they would go for long walks on the beach, she missed the way he kissed her. She missed everything that ever made her feel his presence. But now everything changed. The beach was silent and all disturbed her silence were the sounds of the waves which forced her thoughts back to reality. She stared at the beach with nothing but a heavy heart and sorrow she could take no longer. After what seemed like ages she looked back at the letter and cried silently..

“
Anne ( love of my life ),

As you know I am never into writing letters, please forgive me if I am not able to make myself clear. If you have received this letter you must have even known that this was coming up. I never want this to end this way and it tears me apart to see all this end this way.

Honey, In my life if I ever loved anyone all from heart it would be dis-honest if I didn’t take your name. You were the only one I ever loved in my life. I loved the way you loved me back dear. The way we meet was the best thing so far. You were always there when I needed you the most. The way we meet, the relation we shared will remain the best things that ever happened to me. Now I am certain that the only reason I was brought here on earth was for you. Like I promised, I did cherish all my life I spent with you.

How I wish I had more time to spend with you dear. It would be the only thing I would ever wish for from my life at a moment like this. It was hard to accept that it was our house I’m seeing after arriving from office(for it couldn’t get any worse than that was with everything having messed up so horribly).You somehow turned my world upside down, YES you really did. And tell you what ? The view of my life was even better from this angle. The way you calm me down when I lose my nerve, the way you enjoy my company, the silence we shared when all i did was to stare at the most beautiful women on this planet, the relation we spent was special and I feel so horrible now.

How I wish I could tell you to believe me. Nope I know you believe me. Before you meet me, there was absolutely no spice in my life. It was as plain as the food you cooked(no salt and no spice). Was kidding dear. Before you jumped onto me, I was lost as a person could be yet it surprised me to see that you saw something in me. That made the man I could be and trust me the whole credit goes to you, just you.

But I want a small favour from you girl. I have never asked you for anything ( Apart from I asking if you would marry me 4 years ago and you accepting it, and trust me that changed my whole life). I want you to keep smiling honey. Can you do this for me.? I want you to move on with your life. Sometimes life gives you another chance and I hope you use this chance to show the best you have got. And yeah., I loved you from all my heart and trust me you were the best thing that ever happened to me and I’m glad I had the opportunity for having you a part of my life. I have always loved you and I will love you forever. but i will miss you the most.

Forever yours
- Jimmy “

“why you of the people jimmy?”, “ why did you have to suffer all this dear.?” , “ why did you leave me so alone.? Why did you just vanish from my life.? Don’t I mean anything to you.?” She screamed back at the silent ocean that laid in front of her. –jimmy is dead. He died of a tumour in his stomach. Yet she wasn’t in a position to accept this fact. After having read that letter for the hundredth time, she finally tried smiling recollecting all the happy moments they ever shared together. Yeah it was so easy when they were together. Sure those memories were the best she ever had and yeah she decided that she would carry them, all those memories for the rest of her life down the memory line. Sure it is going to a little difficult as things aren’t the same way they were before. He wasn’t there now. The only important person in her life isn’t with her but yeah he did leave those memories on his way. It definitely hurts to see yet may be this is how it had to end. *sigh* may be this is all he ever wanted from me she thought. Staring at the long light house in the dark she finally decided to move on with her life and learn to start being happy not for herself but for the only one she ever loved.

# 1 : Guardian Angel

...Dirty and entangled,that was exactly how her hair was when she got up..She dint care how she looked.,She was frightened.And somehow that was all that mattered to her at that moment..She had a night mare..She dint dare to move forward getting scared where the ghost she saw in her dreams will suddenly pop up..She had a feeling that someone was observing her,that every move of her was being tracked, that some one was there in the same room as she is and is watching her..She tried her best to forget all this thought and get back to sleep yet in vain..She tried to hide her fear by hugging the pillow..She hugged it tight and began to cry,cry harder..After having soaked the whole pillow with her tears,..

"Please help me.!" she remembered herself shouting out in the lonely dark sky..
"he will kill me"..
"Please help me.! I wanna live..!"..

The fear in her eyes told it all.! That she was deadly scared and she needed help.!Now that she is awake.,she dint want to get back to sleep,for she was scared he might pop up again in her dreams to haunt her memories..Just then she felt as if someone is caressing her,comforting her.,giving her the strength she wanted the most at a moment like to just drive him away..She felt good..As if something magical is happening..When she opened her eyes.,She found him..A tiny little creature,nothing like a human..But something more than that..She wasn't scared of him at all.It was comforting..She liked the way he calmed her down.,he looked beautiful and even more magical now..

"You remind me of the sweet little angel" she said..,"My sweet little angel"..And with that,he spread his beautiful wings and let them flutter..

"I am your angel..Your guardian angel" he responded..

"Does this mean I am safe now?" she asked innocently..

"Yup dear..You are safe now..Am here to take care of you when ever you want" he responded back to the curious questions asked by her..

"But why weren't you here before.?When I needed you the most?"..

"AM always here" he replied stoking her hair.
"I will always stay close to your heart, sweet heart.And dont worry..From wherever I am ,I'll watch out for you..Like I promised you before.,I will be your guardian angel..You can count on me to keep you safe"..

 She looked at up at the sky where millions of stars twinkled,her eyes moist.Yes.,She thought,you did honey..You really did..

...

I always thought that im am really very strong.,...Untill I realized last night that I am so useles.! We happened to play ..The actual playing like how one used to do when they were kids..Man we were all so useles.! It was then that i realised how useless we all were.! We hardly played for about 15 mins to realize that we were panting and dying to get enough oxygen.!But it was fun.! It was fun To feel like kids.,to again experience those innocence.,those fun we had.,to feel how diffucult they are now.!I never happend to enjoy this way.! Not so much atlest.!It was something more.! Something huge.! And something very exciting.!We played hide and seek(the one which can nevr be forgotten).freeze and melt.,blind flod.,cake cut(yeah.! right.! the same thing.! you heard me right).,Seven stones., lock and key.(how can i even forget that)..! It was too much and i am cherishing evry moment of it.!
Phew.! Finally.! Here I am.!! Where.?!? I am here in the digital library.! Kool place from where I can post my blog nah.!? I so missed Bloggind these days.! Days are gloomy and I am rather even more Gloomy.!! I tend to live on Chat,Coke and biscuits these days..I donno whats really happening to me actually.! I get irritated very fast and I am acting really stupid as well., although i donno the reason to all this myself..HUH..! sad life i say.,it really is sad.! Trust me.! Screaming at everyone for i dont find anything else impotrtant to do..Its sometimes not that easy aswell.! And yet again i am Misssing every one.! Yeah yeah.! Everyone again.!

More than anything im waiting for the hollidays.! I just want some peace.! I wanna have some mental peace! Im all exhausted taking all these now.! Not any more.! I want some time all for myself now.! The more i think about this the more i feel like crying,! Friendship always meant something very special to me.. And my friends always had that special position.. I cant live without them and this is for certain.! I rely on their shpulders for every single bit of work.! The more they are close to me., the more i feel secure.! Yeah i really am this way.! FML.! I so hate this in a way.!

I am tired of hearing lectures now.! I am tired of running every morning so that my math sir a few minutes late,I am so tired making people realise they are wrong ( their perception about me is wrong),I am tired of doing those never ending assignments.!I wanna have a break now.! And yeah i will get that At last from tomorrow.!Finally.!! ADIOS hostel for 10 days.1 gonna enjoy at home., food cook by mum.,Shopping and movies., masti.! wow.! I just cant wait any longer now.!!

D.E.D.I..C.A..T.I.O.N (Revised)

> Sai a.k.a Chmiley ( My chellam) **

> Abhinaya a.k.a Abhi (My bestest friend)

> Rohit a.k.a Rho (The wonder guy)

> Sowmya a.k.a Somi (The Dah'ling)

> Shalini a.k.a Shelly (The sweetest one)

> Pravallika a.k.a Pavvi (The one whose always with me)

> Aziz (The only sensible one)

> Neha a.k.a Neh (just can't live without her)

> Vijetha a.k.a Vijju (The total sweetheart)

> Pranavi a.k.a Pannu ( The cutest individual)

> Vamsshi a.k.a Vamsi ( The fundraiser)

> SK a.k.a Guru Bhai (The most brainy guy)

> Sp a.k.a ghobi ( One in his own world)

>Alekya a.ka Aloo (The so in love chick)


** Includes my dear bro's Draco and Max..


And here i thank all these people for making each and everyday a special one.! you guys mean a lot to me.! You really do.! Thanks for bearing with me! Readily accepting every stupid thing i do with a smile on your face and comforting me by always staying with me! I owe a lot to you guys! I really do.! whatever it is.,I am glad you guys are a part of my life.! Calling me up everyday to just make me realize that I am not alone.! Thanks Shelly!Those late night chats with Abhi and Rho..Those "o'l call back in 10 mins" by dear Somi..Those early banging on my door by dear Ms.Swati,Running to have our breakfast as fast as possible,Thadapthi aathma's usual routine.,Those loong and never ending chats in Abhi's room late night.,Teasing every damn person along with sam.,Those awesome fun we have in the E.C.I.L bus.,Lunch times are the best times spent according to me.,teasing everyone,Making fun of every damn person..!Those total brainy talks with my dear "guru bhai"., how the hell can i forget those..!? And Sai., I cant imagine a day without talking with you da.! Its just not possible.!!..WOW.! Its all so memorable.! Love you loads.! :)

Apology: Hey pavvi.! I'm sorry gurl.! I just dint care to notice what was going on through you up till now.! I really acted very selfish for that matter of fact.! I shouldn't have been so rude when you came for a sincere apology..I acted mad then.! I realized I was wrong when i saw the same situation in Rho's point of view..And when Sai made me understand that i am wrong(yeah.! It was he who made me realize that i was doing something really very wrong with you)..Do thank him..Yeah, btw you did forgive me for having acted so stupid nah..?

CONFUSED!

This is exactly how i feel at the moment.! What to.? and what not to do.. I just have no idea.! I feel so Useless at the moment( not that i don't feel it the other times)..I miss every thing..I miss reading novels, i miss sketching stuff, i miss blogging.! Damn i miss everything!I miss my lappy the most.! wonder which idiot used it.I so miss you my dear lappy! These are like the best part of my life and i am horribly missing everything.!The only possible better work i did was that i decided to write a few articles for the LAGH community..! did this end here..? No.! it dint..! i am the only girl who was asked to contribute to this blog( and i am sure that's the only reason they had to shut it down as well)..just kidding..! They had to shut it down..Wonder why..!?!?!? It was really so good and all.! and now even its down.! My life is all so screwed up..! Im missing my friends! Abhi,Rho,somi,Shelly,Pavvi,Neh,Viju and here the list goes on and on and on.>!

Yeah my birthday was just simply superb.! after all my 18Th birthday was finally real good.! And as usual., i did fall ill.! really ill but then i managed to celebrate it the best way..!My friends..! my hostel friends made the best of it..! They made this awesome and yummy sandwich cake for me ( not writing their assignments which they had to submit the next day)..poor gurls did everything to make me feel the most special gurl..! I got a million calls that day..! dint have time to even say a thanks for calling to any one.! *sigh*.. and darling Abhi happened to cry for the reason that she dint wish me first.! Gurl, even if you dint., your the very important part of my life.! I will always love you gurl.! Rho, as usual was the last to wish me.!yet it felt good somehow.! I was later hooked up in between as the seniors also wanted to make me feel that my birthday was something very special.!aw..Seeing Somi,Rho,Abhi,Shelly come down for my birthday was the best thing.! I just loved it..!

Freshers: A total unexpected beautiful event.!Never thought it would be such a big hit actually..but it was.! It turned to be awesome.! Yeah i sure will remember it. My freshers.!I happened to wear a black gown..And i still remember., for the first time., my hair was such a mess..It was horribly frizzy..! Neh,Viju,Pavvi and pranavi tried the hell best they could to make it a little manageable..! Later., as i noticed., my class guys..staring at me as if i came from a total new planet..!Well., they cant be blamed.! i never wear even jeans during the usual days., and on this day i happened to come wearing a gown.!And Aziz, i still am mad at you for you dint attend the freshers and left me with all the geeks myself.!I was totally tensed to even walk(well, what else can one expect when there are like 300+ people staring at you?!?)..The DJ was total fun..! I loved it.! It was the best day..! And i swear i will remember my freshers.!

I so missed writing all these in here.! Feels good to be back.!I swear it really does.!It makes me feel loadsa better now.!

A new friend..

Apart from Neha., Viju and Akash.,I attempted to make other friends..Well, I gotta make for I stay in the hostel unlike them..These three tho simply rock..! I cant be without spending some time with these guys..So., i have my lunch in the canteen in order to spend some time with these people..Some how., I just cant stay without meeting them..Somehow..! These will remain the best part pof my life., I swear they will be there always..!Love you three.! :)

A new friend..Yeah I met her eventually as soon as I landed in my so-called hostel..But yeah were mere acquaintance then..Yeah., the "Hie-Bye" types..Its now that im a little close to them..Swathi.,Asha(Abhilasha).,Sam(Sameera).,Ms.Safedha Begham(swetha).,Vangudu(Vandhana) ,Akansha,shruti,aziz are my dear best buddies at hostel and college .. Those two days of total entertainment with Swathi is awesome..She is full of fun., completely down-to-earth and yeah really helpful if you need someone..She is always there to help her friends unconditionally with out expecting anything in return..This is something I really love about this gurl.!!She is a kid at heart and yeah sometimes she really speaks sensible stuff **surprising tho** :) ..Love yeah gurl.. ( : Trust me., I tend to trust her blindly..Yeah she is worth that though..And somehow., Our stories relate so much..We almost lead the same life., so I tend to get closer to her these days..And trust me., with her to keep banging my head., I actually sit and study everyday..! Thank you gurl.., I swear I owe you a lot..!

We are the **Athma Group** ..Started by Ms.Sameera Giving a name to "Vangudu(thadapthi athma)., and then here it cont..Abhilasha(dhukhi athma).,Swathi(uchalthi athma).,Shweta(Romantic athma).,Sameera(Joker athma).,,myself(Bukh-bukh athma),Akansha(Chuparistham athma),shruti.. Whatever it is., We have atmost fun., and yeah we leave no chance of pulling the other person's leg..! Thats the best part of the athma group..! And I swear i'm loving it..!And with friends like these I am sure I am gonna rock my 4 years of college life here in GITAM hyd.. Well., Now I realise that this place isn't that bad either.. Btw., our hostels are "Lake front hostels"., all thanks to the monsoon.. Now everything is sorta falling into its place.,so it brings me mental peace..I am very fine and quite happy with my friends in here..And where so its the question about my classmates.., None are are my friends except one..Wonder why everyone finds me "the gurl with attitude" where i try my best to communicate with them in Telugu which i seriously dunno..When I can do so much., cant they just understand..?Well., Whatever.. I love my "ATHMA GROUP" and for now that sorta enough i guess.! Its already late.. I beta sleep before dadda bangs my head off.. Adios..! :)

BANG.!BANG.!BANG.!!

"Get up you sleepy heads its almost 12 now..!!" screamed out abhilasha banging the door dragging us back to the reality from our dear dreamworld..
"WOW..!" can anything be worse than this I wondered..! Nope.! I was wrong..! This was just the beginning..! Staying back in the hostel during the holidays or weekends isn't not what i would choose..Yet., this time i did.! i stayed back in here along with swati,sameera and abhilasha.. And yeah i did enjoy both the days., in sense my weekend..! At least im supposed to study tomorrow.! Phew.! Though the food sucks in here..!! BIG TIME..! Paneer was salty., dal was extra spicy., and these cooks put that garlic in everything they can find..! Buggs me to the core..! And snacks.! How am i supposed to forget that..? GULAB JAMUN..! Don't be so glad.., it was too sweet and concentrated that we couldn't have it only..! And then., my dear cell phone..! Yeah my moto rocker is DEAD..!!
My dear cell is dead..! made me cry like hell today..! Yeah it is one useless piece yet i just loved it..After all its my first cell phone.. I will not throw it away tho.. Will miss yah.. Yeah im getting a new mob as well.. Nokia..! a better cell phone with even better features yet i will miss my first cell phone any day..!

So here I am., in my dear hostel room holding my lappy and enjoying the very moment..Dad., thanks a million for just giving me everything you felt i ever needed..!I promise to do justice for all that you are doing for me..! I promise..Siting in here., im am missing my friends like so much..Abhi.,Somi.,Shelly.,Rho im missing you people like hell.! Those long chats with Abhi.,Somi's dear advices.,Rho's scoldings.,those long drives and shopping with Shelly..Damn..! I'm missing everything..!This Hostel is great., friends are even better., yet i dono why i'm missing you guys to this extent..Yet., people i miss you..!

"Just checking weather you wake uped or not".,"I think you not me ra.".,"are you expression".,"I didn't wanted to sleep on his class"..WOW..! What an English..!WAh..! Damn you are making me mad..! getting me..?Wonder why did this person find me of all the people to talk with..!

GITAM UNIVERSITY( Hyderabad campus)- Never did i think i will ever get a tag i actually have here..In a way., im sort enjoying it as well.. :) but yeah., Im so used to Remus,D,Max and Jeni calling me "Shallz".,and "TL" by the rest that i almost forgot that my name is actually "Shalini".. Now hearing my name is sounding sorta weird..!yeah real weird.. ;) I tried running away from my so-called senior all day so I don't have face him.., but may be this isn't what destiny actually wants from me i guess.. This some guy tends to follow me everywhere i go..! And there it was.., finally.!I had no other choice than to tell him a big hie..*as if i never spotted him up till that very moment* I swear i so hate it.., yet i have no other go..I neither wanna talk to him., nor do i wanna ruin my so-called reputation further ignoring him..! Well., how else am i supposed to react else than this..?i get calls from every random idiot on earth that too when im actually supposed to be sleeping..! If One goes on like he wants to be my best friend., other says he is interested in me.,and other asks if im scared of him for im not replying to his msgs..Here it goes.,yet an other guy who wants me to grant him permission to save my number in his cell as my remembrance..This gets a biggest doubt in my tiny little brain., im still alive..Then what the hell did this guy mean by this huh..?.*in my remembrance*..Dude., Im still alive..! Very much alive.! Thank you..!.." i wonder if they really dont understand the very fact that i'm not interested in them.,well I doubt they dont..!" what ever it is., im trying my best to just adapt to this life style and lead my own individual life in here..Its just me and my life in here.,wonder how and when did i turn to be this., yet this is me now.! And pavvi., I really dono what you are upto..You are ruining your so-called life.. Not that it matters to me., just that i dint think you would stoop this low.!You have got one of the worst reputations one can ever get., no offense gurl., you are getting what you wanted..!Guys.,are sometimes double faced..They tend you be something in front of you and something else behind you..Same is the case with people your hanging around gurl..! Hope you understand this fact early.,which i actually doubt you will..What ever it is., I dont care..!

And Remus., me missing you a lot..! A lot..! And yeah.., my dear bro's. Max and D., im missing you guys as well.. Gonna send both you guys rakhi's., do accept them..I have never had bro's and you people are someone really special for you people made me realize what a bro is supposed to be like.. Thank you guys..

P.S: Missing you guys..Love you

haunting memories

Wonder whats it with people and their so-called perceptions.! Gurl., how low can stoop for mere attention..? Well., that's your god-damned problem so no offense.! What ever it is., dare you include me into any of those silly stupid crap.! You and your weird ideas., thanks but put it with you.! Wow., i just can't believe i god one such a tag in here( my college)..**The gurl with total attitude**.. Nice..! I likes.!! :) .. " Are you serious..? Nah you sure are kidding me..*laughs*..sorry *laughs* sorry.!" This was darling abhi's reaction when i told her about the tag i got in my dear college.. Well., be honest.,no one who knows me really well will accept to this statement.. Yeah for i throw Zero percent attitude on them. The rest., My dear Gitamites., i can't seriously help you if you think im one.! well., i have my own advantage in that as well..(sshh., busy bee and somi).. Other day when i was feeling horribly low because of the numerous crank calls and msgs from all weird people., it was somi who bought me back to my senses.!Yeah., she made me realize how foolish i was to weep over it feeling all horrible.!She made me realize how many positive points i have..! WOW gurl.., i still cant believe ..I'm not that use less after all.!Yeah now im all to myself., its my own world..! No one dares arguing with me in my class., they act as if im the most important person in the section.! Even tho im not the CR(class representative)., i find people looking at me for suggestions(This includes the so-called CR as well).. They think im most 'sensible' person in my section..!* yeah guys., i know you will ROTFL seeing this., but... its true * ..Wee., I am so enjoying this.! I love it when every one seams to show me importance., tends to notice everything i do..!Yeah everything.!people were much more interested in knowing how much i scored in my so-called practicals than knowing theirs..And I dare say.,half of them were so irritated that I got a full.! And I remember the "Dude., Get a life" look I gave them.. The thing i hated the most in people at my college- They tend to act as if they are only one's intelligent in the class.. What ever it is., I was pretty successful in Impressing all my teachers.! And at the moment only that matters.!Now,I have stuff to actually sort out..

*SIGH*..Never have I felt my self lucky..If you happen to give me one reason to be happy., yeah I dare say I will show you ten reason why I am supposed to be sad..I have never wanted any thing in my life desperately..But yeah., there was this one thing I just wished I had always..Every time I find any of my friends who are girls talking about their elder brothers you would find me almost dying of jealousy..Damn me., I used to practically envy them..!

But may be not now., I don't any longer..!May be for I am really blessed to have these two awesome people as my Brothers.!Yeah these two guys.!The best people I have ever met.! I swear., no one can be as lucky as I am..!They were always there when I needed them the most., and are even now there..Wonder where I would have landed without them.!They are always there when I need them..One msg and there they are.!Yeah I was addressing to them.. Max., and D..! My dear Brothers..! I swear they have always been with me when I had to face the worst parts in my life..They were giving me support and yeah being optimistic as well..! That helped me in a way., a lot actually..!My counseling.., I almost ate their heads off asking all weird queries.! Yet they were patient with me.! And now when I look back.,all I find is that I have never had any personal chance to actually thank them for that they had to actually face because of me or make them realize how much important they are to me.,yet may be this is one way.!! Thanks bro's..! Swear you guys both rock.!. :) A bigger thanks to Remus, because of whom I got such awesome bro's.! Thanks you chellam..One thing is for certain.,you both have really become a real important part of my life.!Thanks for all that you have ever done for me.. This is a small gift from me to my brave bro's.. A dedication to just the two of you..! Love you both :) I asked Max not to read this..Not because I have a useless thought of he thinking im overacting., but i'm a little scared to how he will react.! Even after I pleading him not to read., I know he will read it..This is the least thing im supposed to know about my bro after all.! Yet I can't quit the idea of not writing it..Its already late.,I better not make it any longer..

P.S:Sai.,thanks a million.I swear I will always love you.!

CHOICE

18th July' 10

The night is really lonely and gloomy in the hostel., I felt as if am all alone in-spite the fact that I am not alone..! There are three others in the same room as I am and all are fast asleep..! Not wanting to bother them., I slowly slipped outta my room..Landing near the stair case I almost broke up crying unable to control myself anymore.. Creating a tough image in-front of others specially my friends is a part of me(however this pathetically doesn't apply to rho,abhi,somi and shelly)..So no matter what it is., I made my mind clear that i'm never gonna shed a single tear drop when everyone's is around..! I'm a real tough gurl you see(HUH..? :P ).. Searching for a pic of yours in my cell and then staring at it I sub consciously cursed my self for not having filled that SASTRA application..! Damn me.! What ever it is., I am damn sure about one thing.. That I haven't been this deeply in love with anything or anyone(not even me.! :D)..!

WHAT is really wrong with me..!?!?! Yet what ever is happening is all just because of you..! Get me.?? Its because of you.!! I'm missing you like crazy..! I really dunno whats going on.. I tend to think about you all day., all night., wondering what you are doing atm., or if you are even missing me the way i'm missing you(duh huh., of-source you are.).. How selfish am I..?!? Why is this happening to me dear..? Why am I missing you this much..? Ah..I am unable to take it any more now..Every now and then I wonder what am I to do to make you understand how much you really mean to me.. Being truthful you mean the whole world to me.. May be more than that.. I am missing you so much atm that all I want is a big bear hug from you..! *A big bear hug* ..Bootham.,I am dying to meet you da..! I'm somewhere very scared if im gonna die with all this happening to me.! OMG..! I have never thought I will one day miss anyone this much..! I owe you a lot dear., I swear I do..! I want nothing else in life if I get you..! The way you call me *shallz* ., seriously I go gaga over you..! Its so wonderful when you call that way..! Guess why..? Because you create like a million butterflies then..! *Good morning love* ., and yeah you make my day..! I so love you for this.! Stay with me forever dear..,please stay with me..! I wanna be all yours.,just yours..! And yeah i promise to stay with you for ever..! I somehow love this feeling..! This feeling when you are with me.! I tend to love myself more..! With every second., I only find myself more deeply in love with you..! I love you loads dear..!

GITAM

Gandhi Institute Of Technology And Mangement..My college..!Getting into this college was one of the biggest challenges I ever faced..!Now that im here.,it somehow feels good..Same time., it even is really very difficult..Swear its never easy to live with four members in the same you are in when your frequencies don't really match.!GEEKS..!STUDS.!That's what they are..!Hanging all their clothes in same the room..?What the hell is that.?WTF.?Swear they have no basic ethics.. I have never seen people sorta this..! They are sorta *wierd*..Other hand., I have found awesome friends.!Manu.,Swe.,Swa.,Asha are a few of them who actually helped me realize that this place can even be total fun..!Hostel and friends can sometimes make your life seam beautiful..Those loong walks with Manu.long chats during the nights.,geting up early and bangging the doors to WAKE others up..! WOW..! Thats awesome..Trying to irritate the hell outta the watchman is one most awesome things.!Whatever., the RAGGING can sometimes be irritating..!Sometimes it gets too much outta controls and that's the time when you get irritated.!Being a little rude and throwing attitude is what you can do and I swear I loved myself for having done that..When its people like us., it can be worst..!Seams even somi had panga with her seniors.,great job gurl.! Now I seriously wonder what can that guy do..!!He never expected me to reply back to him that way..Poor old guy..!What ever it is., its awesome to throw this amount of attitude over them..! Making them realize they are fit for nothing basically.>!What ever it is., I'm loving it..! But yeah.,I am missing all my friends..Rho.,Abhi.,Somi.,Shelly., guys im missing you people like hell.!I swear..!Remus.,Dont just ask me about how much I am missing you ay the moment..! I'm missing you so much that all I want is to just hug you tight..!So tight that i will assure myself you are with me., Always..!What ever it is., Its useless to just think all this.!Its time I gotta do what I am supposed to do..!Just study and enjoy my days in there.>!Like two sides of a coin., heads for my responsibility and tails for enjoyment.,im gonna do justice to both of them..But yeah..! One thing is for certain.,I Love you guys.! Manu., especially you..!

"Don't you really think its too far to travel even if you want to?",my dad asked me trying to at lest make the conversation a little active while we were on our way to GITAM UNIVERSITY.."Huh.?.,Er..Yeah..It is dad.." was all I answered still peeping outta the car window.."This is a JUNGLE.,No use bunking the college..!"..True..The view was breath taking..It was all beeeaaautiful(it really really was)..The roads on the either side were covered with green carpets and the animals grazing just remained me of the beautiful painting I wanted to sketch..Yeah this is all fine..But one thing was just bad..I COULDN'T BUNK MY COLLEGE..!"What the hell.!",I thought..!There isn't piratically any use even if i bunk my college..!There are no Malls or Shopping centers or any Cinema halls near by.."What the hell am i going to do in --"

"Shalini., What are you thinking..?" asked my dad interrupting my thoughts.."Uh.?Huh..!Just thinking the same dad.."."I guess its time I take a decision now.,I guess its better off to join you in the hostel..You see...." The only thought that popped onto my head was MY MUM..! She did all she could up till now to not let me join in a hostel..!The only reason she dint let me join SRM was that she dint want me to join the hostel..Now how will she react.?What will she do i wondered.."Huh Dad., I doubt mum will agree.." I tried saying, making my dad understand what mum will go through.."You needn't worry about that..I will talk to her.." was all he said and I understood by this tone that im getting into the hostel..

"You dint even get your clothes from the tailor.,I wonder what are you upto..You are such a lazy gurl..I wonder what...", my mum was screaming from the kitchen at the top of her voice and I could conclude that she some how accepted the fact that im leaving.."You are going out along with Shelly tomorrow and complete your shopping.,Do you get me..?",she screamed out once again.."yes mum.! I got it..!" I told trying not to fight back..

The night was gloomy and sad..I completed half of my packing..!"PHEW".!I looked at my room and thought im gonna miss this place..Im gonna miss all the late night chats with my bootham.,not just the chats, im gonna him as well..*Way too much*..Looking around at all my posters I thought im gonna miss all these as well..I am gonna miss my Cozy bed where i used to read novels late night..Opening my scrap book.,I just realized how much im gonna miss every damn person..!Fliping the pages I thought,"At last im even gonna miss Mc.D, My tree(its already al dead..!),Pani puri and even my Blog"..!Then I closed it carefully and placed it in my suitcase deciding mentally that im gonna take that along with me..Im gonna miss all the living objects and the non-living ones..!*Sigh*.Its already late..I better get back and complete my packing before my mum freaks her heads off..! Toodles..!

An unknown feeling

Writing a letter every time I miss you.,reading your messages all over again every time to just console this little heart of mine that you are there with me forever..Never did I think that one day I will love you so much that everything will look very minute when compared to what im having.,the fact that im having you..Yeah..True..You really did change my whole life..!! You really turned my world upside down..And tell you what..?The view of my life is even more beautiful from this angle.. :)

You really did change everything..I doubt I would have cherished every moment in my life as im doing now if it wasn't you..You are born racer for you are always running on my head., and I am a big looser for I lose my heart every time I am with you..I doubt I will ever love any person as much as im loving you atm..You really are very special to me..You are the best thing that ever happened to me..At first.,when I began realizing what I was feeling about you I feared you might not feel the same..But now that I know you feel the same.,I just thank god that he listened to all my prayers..You have made me feel as if im the most special person alive on this planet earth and I swear its wonderful..Know why I love you this much..?Because.,I think your the only person who accepts me the way im although I know I have like a million flaws..You listen to all that i say with at most interest(although I know its all only crap) ,you don't mind hearing to the same old story again.,you love this craziness in me and it just surprises me to see how your very much fine with this kid in me..I just can't believe that sometimes God can be this generous..The moment I see your text flashing on my mob., there's a sweet smile across my face..And every time I hear your voice., I go gaga over you..!In short.,I feel so blessed that you think I deserve YOU..

You are a wonderful person.,and I dare say im the most luckiest person alive for you to love me..I dunno much about this unknown feeling but yeah im sure I cannot imagine a life without you in it..I see this happy little dream in my own world of fantasy and I just pray it comes true one day..To be truthful., I have a gut feeling that it isn't too far away..I'm glad that you forgive me for every stupid thing I do,and im glad you accept me the way I am..And yeah., I promise to do what so ever I can to just see you smile always..This post., was just for you dear..I dunno if im supposed to be happy that my college is starting in just couple of days or am I to feel sad that I wont be able to give you the same time..No matter what it is., all I wanna tell is that you will for ever be the most important part of my life..And please stay with me forever..

P.S : I will always love you..

dear DADA..

Dear dada.,


You have always been so kind and good to me yet i somewhere feel i never was up-to the mark..Dad,i know you aren't the person you were once upon a time..Your no longer a man whose always mad at every person..You have changed.. At least when it comes to your family members,when it comes to me you aren't that way..I'm a pampered kid like Remus says..You give me every damn thing before i even ask for it..I asked you for a cell phone., and you bought me one that cost Rs.10,000..I told i am tired of traveling in buses., you bought me a new vehicle..I told you i want new top for my farewell and you gave me 2000bucks.. That's really very sweet of you dad., it really is..I can see that you are doing all this because your feel awful that you were very rude back that time when i was a kid..What ever you did then wasn't intentional yet it had an effect on me.. I know you love me dad..But i feel so guilty that I am not being like how im supposed to be..I'm still scared of you dad..I'm still scared if you will scream at me the way you used to..Every time i see how friendly my friends are with their fathers., it hurts to see that we aren't able to be the same..I curse fate so much that i couldn't play with you the way they did..I feel so bad that i don't have any memories in which,you and I are in one team and we are against mum..! But dad one thing is for certain.,I love you..No matter what i will always love you..I may not show it out that i do., yet i do..A very happy Father's day dad.. :)


- Tonks

Being a self counselor

Like someone said.,thinking of the past is such a waste..But what if it has a role to play in future..?No one ever tried understanding me..Yeah i took IIT in my eleventh and twelfth.,but it had a reason..Reason is simple..Because you said only an engineer has a good name and fame and i fell into the trap like many other students seeing those crap advertisements..End of these two years., i get to see that this corporate colleges gave you nothing but tons of materials to just mug up..!They have a god damn formula that you gotta mug up to answer each question in an exam..!I hate this system of MUGGING things up..!Where the hell are your brains..?Let us USE them..!This isn't a life i imagined for myself..!This isn't..!I imagined a life where people are judged based on their talents..Not on their ability to mug things up..

I just let every other damn person to just take control over me..And now all i see is that.,the thing i tout i will never ever let any one interfere, MY CAREER is at stock..!!Who really values what you want..? If you think your parents do.., your wrong..! They may be right at their place..,seeing the best possible options where their kids settle better than what they are..True..They want a better life for their kids..No harm in that,Nothing wrong..But this isn't what we want from my life..!And like everybody else even I wanted all together different things..!Well who doesn't dream..?And may be someday., I will make those dreams of mine true..? But Yeah., mistake is mine..I never had enough guts to say a NO to my dad..I just did what ever he asked me to do..I just compromised..At first., it all seamed easy, it all seamed so simple to just shut up..But now., i see it..I hate none but myself..! I blame none but myself.!After all i was the one who decided to compromise with stuff rite..?Then why am i backing off now..?Why am i Hating myself now..?Stuff hidden deep inside are just coming out now.,But this isn't fair..Is it..?Yeah it isn't..!I'm sorry mom..'MOM., you won the game..!' You really did..! I will do what you wanted me to..Become an engineer..? Yeah, i will mom..!! No big deal..!And yeah i will do it with interest., i swear..!At least i will make you happy and i will be called a good daughter if i do it, right mom..?I will do it for you mom.,I WILL..I will because mom.,I LOVE YOU..And who knows.,I may start liking it someday..

Iyonic..!

"Give the correct order of Architecture from the options given below"
a)Doric>Ionic>Corinthian b)Corinthian>Ionic>Doric
c)Ionic>Doric>Corinthian d)Doric>Corinthian>Ionic

Damn..!What the hell was that i wondered.."Order of Architecture?"..,Then i concluded..First point., Architecture had an order..Second point.,Ionic in this dint have any link with that of what i read in chemistry..Third.,Every idiot wants to use the same words for different things..!Ionic..? Dint he have any other name to give it i wondered..Who the hell would have imagined Ionic is an order in Architecture besides having its role in chem..


"Iyonic(meaning ionic) bond is always formed between yes(meaning "S")block and a "P" block yelements(meaning elements).!!You take example.,Na..It dont like bond with any other 'yes' block yelement.! It will with yany 'p' block yelement..--Kaya.,and baggi(Sir,my name isn't bagi..! ITS SHALINI sir.!!).! Stand up both of you ,separately.!Now kaya.,you telling me what i telling to the class..
"Sir.,what you told just now..?Okie., I'l try.--IYONIC bond----(Everyone bursts out laughing.!)..Guys listen..! Iyonic bond is found yen between a 'yes' block elemnt 'p' block yelement only.!and ya it cannot be found between yeny two 'yes' block yelements..,Sir am i right or------"BEEP" rang my speaker and a new question flashed onto the screen getting me back to my senses..I looked at the time and got a shock of my life..!!I was half way done with the exam and was left with 15 questions and just half an hour.!What the hell was i doing i wondered.!From order of architecture and i just jumped into venkats class..!Whats wrong with me i tried to figure out..And there it was., the answer..!I missed my college days somehow.!Yeah i really did.!! And i miss kavya the most..! i shouldn't have been this rude that day i cursed my myself..I'm gonna apologize..Its high time i do it i decided..!Finally., Now that im sure im gonna screw my Nata., I totally blame this useless question..!Wondering how people can be so lame to come up with such weird questions i continued my exam..

Dedication

Hm..They say a smile is better than a frown..Yeah i agree..! And with friends like mine., i just love my life..!What ever im today.,is just because of them..I relay on my friends shoulders.,the more they are the more secured i feel.Well even among all my friends., only a few have made it up to this position where i can take all pride to just "they are my mine"..And this post is just dedicated to all all those people who made this life of mine very awesome...


- Remus(my life)

- Busy bee (my sweet idiot)

- Abhi(my BFF)

- Draco and Max(my dearest bros)


- *

- Syia(lil Ms.Popular)

- Shelly(the sweetheart)

-Koffie(arsowl)

- Noodles(the silent one)

- **

** it includes GC,Deeps and Anumati(the kind one) (Rite., your aren't blind..! You read them rite..!)

* it includes Pravallika..who once upon a time was a great friend of mine but now.,im sorry dear..i cant come over it..!

Hm..There was this friend of mine in coll., who was rather very adamant and her EGO.! OMG..! She wasn't a person who will ever accept her mistake..Never..!BUt yeah she was kind from with in..She would hate if any person told anything against me..She would rather fight..!True., she always got me worried.!I was worried about how she was going to survive if she continues to be the same..But i dint give up..I tried my best to do anything that might bring about a change in her and her attitude..,for she really was someone important to me..But,i couldn't take her ego any longer..I broke up the friendship with her..Sigh..! She did realize..And she even came back and asked for apology..!Why was i so rude that day..?I just didn't care to give her another chance..I wanted to show her that i can live a life without her..Yeah i did.,yet I really feel bad for her now..I'm sure she is fine now..Yet it pricks me about how heartless I was then..I'm really sorry gurl..I really am..I dono the reason why i hated you koffie., yet i did..Now, i when i look back i find no reason to hate you..I'm sorry..

And my dear friend from school..She was very good to me..Very Kind..But then she made a slight mistake somewhere knowingly or unknowingly..Not her mistake totally..She tried helping our friend.,But maybe the way she did that,costed her our friendship..Slight misunderstanding lead to great distance..I'm sorry Anu.,I aint angry on you or something..I can never be angry on anyone basically..But i promised Abhi dear.,She somehow needed me more that time..What you tried doing wasn't wrong girl.,you wanted to help Abhi..And im sure you never imagined it would turn this way as well.,but it did..!I still do care about you dear..But i promised someone dear that i wont maintain contact any with you..You have all right to question me why i choose Abhi and not you.,Rite..!I dunno why i took the decision in favor of Abhi that day., may i felt she was much more hurt than anyone ever imagined..She never considered anyone as important to her., but she considered me important dear..If I left her alone that day., im sure she would totally break apart..I hope you understand..I'm sorry..But take my word., i'l be with you whenever you need me gurl..!

The Best English ever..!

"Good afternoon studeents,My name is Amalendu.Does anyone know what it means..?It means., spotless moon."!(spotless moon?!?!?)"I'm stupid.im mad.,I'm LAME..!" Well, for once., at lest he confessed what he is..! :P

His famous dialogues.!

>"He(Lord.Shiva) resides inside their(solicitors) physical body.."

>"Pannadhatri was smelling on his head again and again.."

>"I'm not incapable of fighting with enemies.."

>"We are just participants by the preaching of good things.."

>"He wants to generate relation with your daughter.."

>"Petals of the sportive lotus.."

>"A wise man never considers himself a darling of the king.."

>"They were supposed to disappear in disguise for a year.."

>"Along with the troops of gods.."

>"They shone identical,like buds of lotus.."

>"It was the test of the teacher to Uppamanyu.."

>"The king donated all the money and remained paisa-less.."

>"You three of you stand together separately.."

Hope you learn better English people.!! A great lesson..! :P

The Letter

Dear Mother Fairy,

At first I thought that im ill fated..Thought I will never get anything I wish for..Thought that he who calls himself GOD,liked snatching my things away from me..But I no longer think the same..Now that I got my life.,the only person i ever loved back in my life and I tend to believe him..

What can a small one year old teach you..?Well,They can do miracles..When i saw that kid laughing from her heart..,Playing,just doing want she wished like..No worries,no nothing..!And looking at her,I realized what im really missing..!This life has made us all smile artificially..And its sad., even im following the trend..I wanna smile., laugh from my heart..I dont wanna put on this artificial smile on me..Mother fairy., make this city a better place to live..It hardly rains in here..!! I love rain..! The smell of mud.,it is just awesome..I love getting wet in rain.,more than anything I love eating pani puri when it rains.,but it hardly does these days..Please do anything so that it rains in here..

More than anything.,i want my freedom..I am tired of this now..!I can't any longer compromise..I have had enough with dad now..Please see to that,i get what i want now mother fairy..!Please grant me this one wish..I so wanted to leave this place..,even after i got into the top best collz, dad isn't letting me go..Please do any thing magical so that i just get what i want..

Lastly,mother fairy,My best friend is having so many problems in his life..I can't see him this way..He hardly speaks to anyone these days..He is all messed up..I'm sure i will be with him till he is out of all his problems.,yet give me the strength to hold on to it..My last wish may sound a lil kiddu,yet i want it..!I wanna see my bootham..I so wanna see him..I have been trying to put this thought out yet i wanna meet him one day..And when i do., please see that it is all still..The time shouldn't move..,it should look as if everyone out there is petrified.. :D

Just grand me these wishes..If not all., I just want my freedom.!I'm sure i'l get the rest anyway with my bootham beside..Please grant me this one wish..

D.E.P.R.E.S.S.E.D

Whats really wrong with me..?I'm into AIEEE..!!I prayed so much that i should get into it..Now that im in., why am i not happy..!?!?! I so wanted a seat it in AIEEE..!I even did..! What..? 6812..? Is that a rank..?Damn..!I so hate this..!May be this is the only reason,im unable to face anyone..Can't be proud..!Mom,I'm so sorry..!I dint keep keep up your hopes.!Makes me feel so bad.., it so is.!

A Fairytale Journey

Who ever imagined that i will get what i wished for when i almost it lost..?Well,in this beautiful journey called life i am blessed i found people who love me for what im..Maybe after all.,'A few Fairy tales have happy endings'..!And now its my turn to thank every one who helped me in this..My friends, they have been a real great support to me..Neva imagined they would react so positive., well may be they always were positive..Rho,Abhi,Adi,Sel..thank you guys..! thanks for being with me always..!I was a lil foolish for acting mad,crazy or what ever..!I'm really very sorry if i was rude at any point of time..,it wasn't intentional..Rho and Abhi,If i by chance don't reply to your msgs or call you guys back., scream at me..!You have that right over me..Max,Draco,Jeni thanks for all that you guys ever did..!I swear you guys did the best part of it..Max,thanks for being on my side..Draco.,my dearest bro., thanks for being optimistic..It somehow helped me handle the situation..Jeni., you are a real sweetheart like remus says..,Max is lucky..! :)

And finally.,Remus,my Sweetheart.,Thanks a million..!Thanks for understanding that you are my life and i just can't live without you..It surprises me if i just look at how we meet and what you mean to me now..But sai.,a small request..I'm a total kid..!Like any other gurl., even im a Lil egoistic..I expect you to always understand me or what so ever..I took this relationship way too seriously and yeah you do mean the whole world to me.. I just wont understand myself sometimes..I tend to think a way too much.., sometimes about complicated stuff while sometimes about nothing at all and Silliest things get me worried or sad..,but please bear with me sai..This is my only request..I somehow can't change this kid in me, so please just forgive me if i ever act stupid..If i ever scream at you.., it purely wouldn't be intentional..All i can say is that please bear with me sai.., i just love you..!

TWILIGHT

"Bella,can i talk to you..?"
she recognized that voice the very moment..! "Edward.!".."Oh-Yeah-sure" she managed to say trying not to sound curious..

"Bella, this is a little sirius.. I dono where to start it, or what to even say..".Staring at his beautiful face, she wondered what that could be..

"Bella,ILoveYou,WillYouBeWithMe.?IWanaMarryYou.!"Shocked and surprised with her own good luck,she stared at him for a moment trying to figure out if she was only dreaming..!

"Edward, are you proposing to me.?"

"Well i sort am..This is what you wanted anyways.,right..?"he said trying to sound a lil confident..

"Edward,Im just seventeen.!"She teased him unable to believe what she was hearing..

"well, don't marry me now Bella,but later can you..?"He managed to say rather not blabbering..

"Edward.Oh my god..! I can't believe my ears..!Is this really true..?Or am i Dreaming it--"was all she managed to say..,as Edward pulled her close to him and hugged her tight assuring her that it wasn't any dream.!They were like that may be for like ages for neither wanted to let go the other..

"Bella,Can i take this as a "yes"..? You see im dying outa tension in here.."Smiling at her dear lil sweet heart,still resting her head on his shoulder all she said was "Sure,I would love to"

Finally,did the Lion fall in love with the lamb..? Well,Of course it did.!

Fishy?!?!

Is something really wrong with me..?YEAH..!What the hell..?!?!

"Choco,your dad told that he will get about 50 diary milks.,will that be enough..?" screamed mom from the kitchen.."Mom.,?Whats going on.?Did bacha get her results..?Why are you geting her chocola--"DAMN..!Shit.!Its her BIRTHDAY tomorrow.!How the hell did i forget..?!?!?! Seams as if it was yesterday that i saw the movie 'kites' ,but sigh..! It was a week before..! Where the hell did the whole week vanish i wondered.!She came into the room when i was busy sketching for my nata..Peeped on to my sketching and asked.,"Di, what did you get for me..?".."For what bacha?your results aren't out yet nah.?"..Without another word the sad Lil girl walked outta the room..!!"How the hell did i forget her birthday..?", i cursed my self for a second and then got back to my sketching.! Yeah true im acting insane..! i have totally lost it..! Im sorry bachha..! I dint mean to forget your birthday..! A very happy birthday lil sis..! Swear i'l be with you when ever you need me., i promise..!

Apology

In my life.,'Friends=Smile'..True.How many will have such awesome friends like mine..?People who will bear my madness,stupidity and this kid in me.?Hardly any..!I'm a kinda person who is just loves to try out every damn crazy thing existing.!And with friends sorta these im truly blessed..How many of you can bear a person whose craziness reaches the sky..? Wel.,let me finish.!Im a kinda person who will plan for shopping in general bazaar when it gonna rain like hell.,i am very very attracted to stair case..What.? i meant i will trip and fall with out any sign,i hog like hell,i broke all the test tubes in my chem lab(well,not purposely),i discovered that trees love me in sense they get attracted to me and get stuck to me,lizard just pops from no where..!I have been called in that damn office room like a million times(i miss them now tho).! HUH !Don't think this is it.! Its a very small part of me..I love vodka.! Vodka.?!?!Yeah..!I love trying out all crazy stuff.!I'm glad i have all these guys with me and my craziness forever.!Who ever tought i will have such awesome buddies who will cry if i did..? Well, i never thought..!They run and come down to my place the moment they hear something is wrong with me..Rho and Abhi., you both have been the best part of my life..You were always there when i needed you guys..!My BFF's..!You guys know i love you rite..? Adi,my dear long lost friend,im sorry..!I know you will stop giving me advice now,but please don't do that..Siya,Vi,Shelly., guys your are truly awesome.! who will ever imagine one can just pop into my house the moment im depressed..? Guys., i love you all.! You are the best people in my life and i swear you will always be..!

But im sorry guys., i hid a small truth from all you guys.!I know it isn't small., its huge..yet i hid it..!I'm sorry rho.,because i know you will be at most angry for this.!Guys, i neva hid a word from you people yet i din have gutts to say this to you people..I was acting as if im fine.,as if things are normal but all that was purely fiction..Remember guys i told i will live a life for myself forgetting remus..?Damn .! That was a lie.!I'm sorry..!I know what you people have to say..,Just that im clinking onto a ghost.,dono whats really wrong with my senses.,if im really mad., or may be im INSANE..Yet,truth is that,I can't forget this guy people.,i just can't..!He is still the same for me..The same guy i met ,the only guy i ever loved..I can't do this any more guys., im sorry..!I still am crazily and madly in love with this guy and i really mean it..Im Sorry if i hurt you people,i swear i really am..!Its my personal view of this thing.I aint expecting anything..Nothing positive..Just leting you people know whats going on through me..I never hid a word so i wanted to let you people know..I'm sure i wont be able to tell you guys anything in person..

P.S:Rho, you have all rite to slap me if your anger reaches the max extent..!but please no gussa nah..?
@others:I'm sorry..!

Story Trap

Remus > Busy bee:Tomorrow,the first thing you will do just after you get up even before you brush your teeth is to tell Tonks that "I love her soo much".!

@Busy bee,Abhi,Draco,Jake,Sel,Syia,Vi and Shelly:Guys,i dono whats really wrong with us..But i guess we 'broke up'.!I wish i was only dreaming guys yet this is it..!

Siya,Vi,Shelly > Tonks:congrats.!finally you understood..!He isn't worth you.!

Busy bee > Tonks:what the fuck!how the hell can this be possible.!?I just can't believe this.!I don't trust people so easily but this guy shattered me tonks.!and im not in a position to face you..I myself can't take it so tell me how the hell can i help you out..?
Well put all this aside..Tell me one thing Tonks.,"Are you fine?"

Abhi > Tonks:I wanna slap that guy for having done this to you.!I lost all the respect i ever had for him.!I trusted him and this is what he does to my friend.?Damn him.!

Busy bee,Abhi > Tonks:Don't worry tonks,you will find a better guy than him.!A guy who will never dare hurting you.!Move on with life Tonks,just move on..And im sure you will find a better guy than him..This guy just isn't worth you..You are far too good for him..!

Draco,Sel,Jake > Tonks:Don't loose hope..Have trust.!He isn't a bad guy..Just have faith and trust..What ever happens,happens for a reason..

@Siya,Vi,Shelly:Guys,i know you people love me a lot.! you guys will do anything to just see me smile..And i swear im lucky for having you people as my best buddies.!

@Busy bee:I'm fine..Nothings wrong with me..I understand what you are going through tho..You trusted this guy more than you trusted me.!Busy bee,i always wanted you to know how i really felt,yet you never showed any interest in this subject..I wanted you to say that even now i don't hate this guy..somewhere in my heart i still love him rho..And im sorry..

@Abhi:I understand whats going on through you..You were the first person who spoke to him.And i still remember the way he used to pull your leg..It purely understandable..You were there when i was going on endlessly about this guy..You did all this just to make me realize that you are still "alive"..well i understood.. :P

@Sel,Draco:You guys have been a great help to me..I thought you people will never talk to me again after we broke up yet you saved me by not doing this.!Thanks a million for this small gift..! :)

@All the above:Now i really feel that love teaches you many things on how to live life..It teaches you to be patient and forgiving and yeah time spent in it are really very special.Guys,like you said i may find another guy in my life..No doubt i will..Yet,i don't want it..I love this peepz..I love begin single,all to myself..I'm having enough time to just escape into my own world of fantasy..I saw "TWILIGHT" for like 7 times..WHY..? Because I related my guy to Edward..! Sometimes I wish I had someone to talk and discuss this thing with and clear my god damn head...Never mind this..! BTW, I swear i love you guys a lot..!You people were such a great support to me..Thanks for holding on with me when i was sad,mad,angry,hurt or extremely crazy..You guys were with me even when i told that i wanna drink vodka and try out a hookah...Don't worry guys.,I wont any longer bug you guys about him..You people were there with me suggesting which gift i had to gift him on his birthday and somehow it did help..True that this din't end the way i wanted it to end.,well life isn't a bedtime story which will only have happy endings rite..?