CHOICE

18th July' 10

The night is really lonely and gloomy in the hostel., I felt as if am all alone in-spite the fact that I am not alone..! There are three others in the same room as I am and all are fast asleep..! Not wanting to bother them., I slowly slipped outta my room..Landing near the stair case I almost broke up crying unable to control myself anymore.. Creating a tough image in-front of others specially my friends is a part of me(however this pathetically doesn't apply to rho,abhi,somi and shelly)..So no matter what it is., I made my mind clear that i'm never gonna shed a single tear drop when everyone's is around..! I'm a real tough gurl you see(HUH..? :P ).. Searching for a pic of yours in my cell and then staring at it I sub consciously cursed my self for not having filled that SASTRA application..! Damn me.! What ever it is., I am damn sure about one thing.. That I haven't been this deeply in love with anything or anyone(not even me.! :D)..!

WHAT is really wrong with me..!?!?! Yet what ever is happening is all just because of you..! Get me.?? Its because of you.!! I'm missing you like crazy..! I really dunno whats going on.. I tend to think about you all day., all night., wondering what you are doing atm., or if you are even missing me the way i'm missing you(duh huh., of-source you are.).. How selfish am I..?!? Why is this happening to me dear..? Why am I missing you this much..? Ah..I am unable to take it any more now..Every now and then I wonder what am I to do to make you understand how much you really mean to me.. Being truthful you mean the whole world to me.. May be more than that.. I am missing you so much atm that all I want is a big bear hug from you..! *A big bear hug* ..Bootham.,I am dying to meet you da..! I'm somewhere very scared if im gonna die with all this happening to me.! OMG..! I have never thought I will one day miss anyone this much..! I owe you a lot dear., I swear I do..! I want nothing else in life if I get you..! The way you call me *shallz* ., seriously I go gaga over you..! Its so wonderful when you call that way..! Guess why..? Because you create like a million butterflies then..! *Good morning love* ., and yeah you make my day..! I so love you for this.! Stay with me forever dear..,please stay with me..! I wanna be all yours.,just yours..! And yeah i promise to stay with you for ever..! I somehow love this feeling..! This feeling when you are with me.! I tend to love myself more..! With every second., I only find myself more deeply in love with you..! I love you loads dear..!