A letter to nobody

Here I sit all to myself where the weather is gloomy but the people around are even more gloomy..! nothing is actually interesting me these days and I’m really BUGGED to be real short. Looking at the  almost grayish tee(at least to my eyes), I wondered what that person meant by calling it a “bottle green tee”.

Yet, everything seems so awesome about that tee. Maybe., just maybe that person who sent it to me knew it pretty well that it’s the only thing that’ll make me happy. And yeah,they just did it. “Life is sexually transmitted and terminal”, and I really wonder what did that mean..! ;) Whatever it is., I’m trying my best to find happiness from all the tiniest things. My semesters are DONE and the worst part is that it just doesn’t seam so. I wanna enjoy yet I donno what to do so I can feel better. I’m irritated I’m feeling jobless at home. I just have nothing at all to work or do. Read your subjects ,says dad as if I have been given holidays for that damn thing atm. I have to enjoy god damn it..! wonder if anyone will at least understand.!


“Mr.Loneliness ,(she screamed out to the gloomy weather so loud hoping that anyone will listen to her)
Sir,I am all irritated. I donno if this is because I’m missing chmiley way  too much that i'm totally downed in it or is it because I’m bugged people don’t give me, my damn freedom. Everything seams to be frustrate me, Sir. More than anything I’m feeling real lonely sir. Who can know this better than you, yourself.? I just somehow missing talking to him, its been almost a week since I last spoke to him, sir. I planned to write a story sir, like you know. But somehow I’m too sad to even write it. Its sorta taking everything outta me. Tears roll down my eyes for god knows what reason.

And sir, I hate it when people take me for granted. And its pretty sad that my dear busy bee is doing it. Is he ignoring me.? Maybe not. He is just taking me for granted! And this is something I hate the most. Yet, know what’s hurting me the most sir? It’s the feeling I’m having atm. I feel so useless and I donno what exactly am I supposed to do to get rid of this feeling. I’m missing everything. And I feel as if everything is being taken away from me.

It’s a humble request from me to you, Mr.Loneliness, that you please take this feeling away from me. Sir, I have promised someone very dear to me that I’l never be sad. But sadly it isn’t working now. Its my request to you that if you help me reduce this feeling, I can keep up my promise of always being happy and smiling sir.


I don’t like tears my self sir, I freak at any one who has them in their eyes and I give a damn to them. I don’t wanna do the same to myself sir, I don’t want any one think I’m useless and that I cry for every damn thing. Sir, I don’t cry for every small thing. When things get really out of control and I just can’t take them anymore I get irritated. When this irritation increases beyond myself creating problems to others, I start crying so that I control myself sir. Please do understand my situation sir. Its my humble request. I hope you’l listen to it at the earliest.

Yours faithfully,

A lil gurl who lost her smile”

After having finished the letter, she cried cursing herself for having done it. Yet, she had no other choice than doing this. She wanted to cry out to her hearts and feel better for she thought this was the only way to do. She neither wanted to scream at others nor did she want to blame any one else. *sigh*. All she wanted Is to getting back all that she missed, people she missed. She wanted to at least smile once whole heatedly for she is tired taking this any longer now.