# 2 : Expressions.

All that was happening was somehow very difficult to take in all at once, for the worst and dizziest night mares were zapping back to reality. She dint still want to accept all that was taking place as real. She was happy to think that he would return back any moment and greet her the same way he used to do. ‘good morning, Honey’, her ears wanted to hear those words like how she used to every morning. She missed the way he made her feel special, she missed the way he curdled her, she missed the way they would go for long walks on the beach, she missed the way he kissed her. She missed everything that ever made her feel his presence. But now everything changed. The beach was silent and all disturbed her silence were the sounds of the waves which forced her thoughts back to reality. She stared at the beach with nothing but a heavy heart and sorrow she could take no longer. After what seemed like ages she looked back at the letter and cried silently..

“
Anne ( love of my life ),

As you know I am never into writing letters, please forgive me if I am not able to make myself clear. If you have received this letter you must have even known that this was coming up. I never want this to end this way and it tears me apart to see all this end this way.

Honey, In my life if I ever loved anyone all from heart it would be dis-honest if I didn’t take your name. You were the only one I ever loved in my life. I loved the way you loved me back dear. The way we meet was the best thing so far. You were always there when I needed you the most. The way we meet, the relation we shared will remain the best things that ever happened to me. Now I am certain that the only reason I was brought here on earth was for you. Like I promised, I did cherish all my life I spent with you.

How I wish I had more time to spend with you dear. It would be the only thing I would ever wish for from my life at a moment like this. It was hard to accept that it was our house I’m seeing after arriving from office(for it couldn’t get any worse than that was with everything having messed up so horribly).You somehow turned my world upside down, YES you really did. And tell you what ? The view of my life was even better from this angle. The way you calm me down when I lose my nerve, the way you enjoy my company, the silence we shared when all i did was to stare at the most beautiful women on this planet, the relation we spent was special and I feel so horrible now.

How I wish I could tell you to believe me. Nope I know you believe me. Before you meet me, there was absolutely no spice in my life. It was as plain as the food you cooked(no salt and no spice). Was kidding dear. Before you jumped onto me, I was lost as a person could be yet it surprised me to see that you saw something in me. That made the man I could be and trust me the whole credit goes to you, just you.

But I want a small favour from you girl. I have never asked you for anything ( Apart from I asking if you would marry me 4 years ago and you accepting it, and trust me that changed my whole life). I want you to keep smiling honey. Can you do this for me.? I want you to move on with your life. Sometimes life gives you another chance and I hope you use this chance to show the best you have got. And yeah., I loved you from all my heart and trust me you were the best thing that ever happened to me and I’m glad I had the opportunity for having you a part of my life. I have always loved you and I will love you forever. but i will miss you the most.

Forever yours
- Jimmy “

“why you of the people jimmy?”, “ why did you have to suffer all this dear.?” , “ why did you leave me so alone.? Why did you just vanish from my life.? Don’t I mean anything to you.?” She screamed back at the silent ocean that laid in front of her. –jimmy is dead. He died of a tumour in his stomach. Yet she wasn’t in a position to accept this fact. After having read that letter for the hundredth time, she finally tried smiling recollecting all the happy moments they ever shared together. Yeah it was so easy when they were together. Sure those memories were the best she ever had and yeah she decided that she would carry them, all those memories for the rest of her life down the memory line. Sure it is going to a little difficult as things aren’t the same way they were before. He wasn’t there now. The only important person in her life isn’t with her but yeah he did leave those memories on his way. It definitely hurts to see yet may be this is how it had to end. *sigh* may be this is all he ever wanted from me she thought. Staring at the long light house in the dark she finally decided to move on with her life and learn to start being happy not for herself but for the only one she ever loved.