dear DADA..

Dear dada.,


You have always been so kind and good to me yet i somewhere feel i never was up-to the mark..Dad,i know you aren't the person you were once upon a time..Your no longer a man whose always mad at every person..You have changed.. At least when it comes to your family members,when it comes to me you aren't that way..I'm a pampered kid like Remus says..You give me every damn thing before i even ask for it..I asked you for a cell phone., and you bought me one that cost Rs.10,000..I told i am tired of traveling in buses., you bought me a new vehicle..I told you i want new top for my farewell and you gave me 2000bucks.. That's really very sweet of you dad., it really is..I can see that you are doing all this because your feel awful that you were very rude back that time when i was a kid..What ever you did then wasn't intentional yet it had an effect on me.. I know you love me dad..But i feel so guilty that I am not being like how im supposed to be..I'm still scared of you dad..I'm still scared if you will scream at me the way you used to..Every time i see how friendly my friends are with their fathers., it hurts to see that we aren't able to be the same..I curse fate so much that i couldn't play with you the way they did..I feel so bad that i don't have any memories in which,you and I are in one team and we are against mum..! But dad one thing is for certain.,I love you..No matter what i will always love you..I may not show it out that i do., yet i do..A very happy Father's day dad.. :)


- Tonks

Being a self counselor

Like someone said.,thinking of the past is such a waste..But what if it has a role to play in future..?No one ever tried understanding me..Yeah i took IIT in my eleventh and twelfth.,but it had a reason..Reason is simple..Because you said only an engineer has a good name and fame and i fell into the trap like many other students seeing those crap advertisements..End of these two years., i get to see that this corporate colleges gave you nothing but tons of materials to just mug up..!They have a god damn formula that you gotta mug up to answer each question in an exam..!I hate this system of MUGGING things up..!Where the hell are your brains..?Let us USE them..!This isn't a life i imagined for myself..!This isn't..!I imagined a life where people are judged based on their talents..Not on their ability to mug things up..

I just let every other damn person to just take control over me..And now all i see is that.,the thing i tout i will never ever let any one interfere, MY CAREER is at stock..!!Who really values what you want..? If you think your parents do.., your wrong..! They may be right at their place..,seeing the best possible options where their kids settle better than what they are..True..They want a better life for their kids..No harm in that,Nothing wrong..But this isn't what we want from my life..!And like everybody else even I wanted all together different things..!Well who doesn't dream..?And may be someday., I will make those dreams of mine true..? But Yeah., mistake is mine..I never had enough guts to say a NO to my dad..I just did what ever he asked me to do..I just compromised..At first., it all seamed easy, it all seamed so simple to just shut up..But now., i see it..I hate none but myself..! I blame none but myself.!After all i was the one who decided to compromise with stuff rite..?Then why am i backing off now..?Why am i Hating myself now..?Stuff hidden deep inside are just coming out now.,But this isn't fair..Is it..?Yeah it isn't..!I'm sorry mom..'MOM., you won the game..!' You really did..! I will do what you wanted me to..Become an engineer..? Yeah, i will mom..!! No big deal..!And yeah i will do it with interest., i swear..!At least i will make you happy and i will be called a good daughter if i do it, right mom..?I will do it for you mom.,I WILL..I will because mom.,I LOVE YOU..And who knows.,I may start liking it someday..

Iyonic..!

"Give the correct order of Architecture from the options given below"
a)Doric>Ionic>Corinthian b)Corinthian>Ionic>Doric
c)Ionic>Doric>Corinthian d)Doric>Corinthian>Ionic

Damn..!What the hell was that i wondered.."Order of Architecture?"..,Then i concluded..First point., Architecture had an order..Second point.,Ionic in this dint have any link with that of what i read in chemistry..Third.,Every idiot wants to use the same words for different things..!Ionic..? Dint he have any other name to give it i wondered..Who the hell would have imagined Ionic is an order in Architecture besides having its role in chem..


"Iyonic(meaning ionic) bond is always formed between yes(meaning "S")block and a "P" block yelements(meaning elements).!!You take example.,Na..It dont like bond with any other 'yes' block yelement.! It will with yany 'p' block yelement..--Kaya.,and baggi(Sir,my name isn't bagi..! ITS SHALINI sir.!!).! Stand up both of you ,separately.!Now kaya.,you telling me what i telling to the class..
"Sir.,what you told just now..?Okie., I'l try.--IYONIC bond----(Everyone bursts out laughing.!)..Guys listen..! Iyonic bond is found yen between a 'yes' block elemnt 'p' block yelement only.!and ya it cannot be found between yeny two 'yes' block yelements..,Sir am i right or------"BEEP" rang my speaker and a new question flashed onto the screen getting me back to my senses..I looked at the time and got a shock of my life..!!I was half way done with the exam and was left with 15 questions and just half an hour.!What the hell was i doing i wondered.!From order of architecture and i just jumped into venkats class..!Whats wrong with me i tried to figure out..And there it was., the answer..!I missed my college days somehow.!Yeah i really did.!! And i miss kavya the most..! i shouldn't have been this rude that day i cursed my myself..I'm gonna apologize..Its high time i do it i decided..!Finally., Now that im sure im gonna screw my Nata., I totally blame this useless question..!Wondering how people can be so lame to come up with such weird questions i continued my exam..

Dedication

Hm..They say a smile is better than a frown..Yeah i agree..! And with friends like mine., i just love my life..!What ever im today.,is just because of them..I relay on my friends shoulders.,the more they are the more secured i feel.Well even among all my friends., only a few have made it up to this position where i can take all pride to just "they are my mine"..And this post is just dedicated to all all those people who made this life of mine very awesome...


- Remus(my life)

- Busy bee (my sweet idiot)

- Abhi(my BFF)

- Draco and Max(my dearest bros)


- *

- Syia(lil Ms.Popular)

- Shelly(the sweetheart)

-Koffie(arsowl)

- Noodles(the silent one)

- **

** it includes GC,Deeps and Anumati(the kind one) (Rite., your aren't blind..! You read them rite..!)

* it includes Pravallika..who once upon a time was a great friend of mine but now.,im sorry dear..i cant come over it..!

Hm..There was this friend of mine in coll., who was rather very adamant and her EGO.! OMG..! She wasn't a person who will ever accept her mistake..Never..!BUt yeah she was kind from with in..She would hate if any person told anything against me..She would rather fight..!True., she always got me worried.!I was worried about how she was going to survive if she continues to be the same..But i dint give up..I tried my best to do anything that might bring about a change in her and her attitude..,for she really was someone important to me..But,i couldn't take her ego any longer..I broke up the friendship with her..Sigh..! She did realize..And she even came back and asked for apology..!Why was i so rude that day..?I just didn't care to give her another chance..I wanted to show her that i can live a life without her..Yeah i did.,yet I really feel bad for her now..I'm sure she is fine now..Yet it pricks me about how heartless I was then..I'm really sorry gurl..I really am..I dono the reason why i hated you koffie., yet i did..Now, i when i look back i find no reason to hate you..I'm sorry..

And my dear friend from school..She was very good to me..Very Kind..But then she made a slight mistake somewhere knowingly or unknowingly..Not her mistake totally..She tried helping our friend.,But maybe the way she did that,costed her our friendship..Slight misunderstanding lead to great distance..I'm sorry Anu.,I aint angry on you or something..I can never be angry on anyone basically..But i promised Abhi dear.,She somehow needed me more that time..What you tried doing wasn't wrong girl.,you wanted to help Abhi..And im sure you never imagined it would turn this way as well.,but it did..!I still do care about you dear..But i promised someone dear that i wont maintain contact any with you..You have all right to question me why i choose Abhi and not you.,Rite..!I dunno why i took the decision in favor of Abhi that day., may i felt she was much more hurt than anyone ever imagined..She never considered anyone as important to her., but she considered me important dear..If I left her alone that day., im sure she would totally break apart..I hope you understand..I'm sorry..But take my word., i'l be with you whenever you need me gurl..!

The Best English ever..!

"Good afternoon studeents,My name is Amalendu.Does anyone know what it means..?It means., spotless moon."!(spotless moon?!?!?)"I'm stupid.im mad.,I'm LAME..!" Well, for once., at lest he confessed what he is..! :P

His famous dialogues.!

>"He(Lord.Shiva) resides inside their(solicitors) physical body.."

>"Pannadhatri was smelling on his head again and again.."

>"I'm not incapable of fighting with enemies.."

>"We are just participants by the preaching of good things.."

>"He wants to generate relation with your daughter.."

>"Petals of the sportive lotus.."

>"A wise man never considers himself a darling of the king.."

>"They were supposed to disappear in disguise for a year.."

>"Along with the troops of gods.."

>"They shone identical,like buds of lotus.."

>"It was the test of the teacher to Uppamanyu.."

>"The king donated all the money and remained paisa-less.."

>"You three of you stand together separately.."

Hope you learn better English people.!! A great lesson..! :P

The Letter

Dear Mother Fairy,

At first I thought that im ill fated..Thought I will never get anything I wish for..Thought that he who calls himself GOD,liked snatching my things away from me..But I no longer think the same..Now that I got my life.,the only person i ever loved back in my life and I tend to believe him..

What can a small one year old teach you..?Well,They can do miracles..When i saw that kid laughing from her heart..,Playing,just doing want she wished like..No worries,no nothing..!And looking at her,I realized what im really missing..!This life has made us all smile artificially..And its sad., even im following the trend..I wanna smile., laugh from my heart..I dont wanna put on this artificial smile on me..Mother fairy., make this city a better place to live..It hardly rains in here..!! I love rain..! The smell of mud.,it is just awesome..I love getting wet in rain.,more than anything I love eating pani puri when it rains.,but it hardly does these days..Please do anything so that it rains in here..

More than anything.,i want my freedom..I am tired of this now..!I can't any longer compromise..I have had enough with dad now..Please see to that,i get what i want now mother fairy..!Please grant me this one wish..I so wanted to leave this place..,even after i got into the top best collz, dad isn't letting me go..Please do any thing magical so that i just get what i want..

Lastly,mother fairy,My best friend is having so many problems in his life..I can't see him this way..He hardly speaks to anyone these days..He is all messed up..I'm sure i will be with him till he is out of all his problems.,yet give me the strength to hold on to it..My last wish may sound a lil kiddu,yet i want it..!I wanna see my bootham..I so wanna see him..I have been trying to put this thought out yet i wanna meet him one day..And when i do., please see that it is all still..The time shouldn't move..,it should look as if everyone out there is petrified.. :D

Just grand me these wishes..If not all., I just want my freedom.!I'm sure i'l get the rest anyway with my bootham beside..Please grant me this one wish..