Sometimes, I wish I had some kind of a magic pill which would just dissolve each and every problem I have in a matter of seconds. But *sigh*, that’s something impossible and I am now getting to learn it. Being to one’s own self and not letting others know you’re in trouble is what most of us do. and being honest that’s what even I do. It was then i noticed a small piece of paper crumbled into a ball. I opened it, and it read " Best friends <3kane".. It kept me smiling for god knows how long.
“Bbbrr—Bbrrr-BBBRRR”, well that is exactly how my cell phone vibrates and tears all the thoughts back to reality if I don’t lift it in the very first ring. It was Kate. The way she responded told me it was something important and that she needed me. I immediately squeezed myself into the conversation to know what the hell was troubling her.
“How far would you go to in the name of love?”, she asked. The question stung me so hard that it actually made me think.
After a while all I managed to say her was, “ How long in the name of love.? I really dunno”. Still not getting where was heading this whole thing, I managed to drag the conversation a little while longer.
“Would you ever dare to fall in love with your best friend?”, Suddenly she spoke out. When she got no response from me, she asked me the same question yet again.
“Well it depends on how important that person is to you. And more than that it is important to know if that person feels the same with you.” I spoke in a rather calm voice.
“Well, then lets say he is the most important person to you in your life. And lets assume even he has a soft corner for you. Then.? Would you risk falling in love with him Clair.?” She asked me
The questions she asked me made me think on the subject more and more even though I dint want to swim in the river of emotions she laid. “ Kate, would it be fine if I answer you after a while.? I need to finish my works” I told and put the receiver down as if trying to run away from something that relates me to it.
With the moon bright and charming, the night sky looked even more beautiful than I had expected. But today., the moon was rather calm as if wanting to know how I would react to what my best friend just asked. How far would I go in the name of love.?
I tried putting myself in my friend’s position and then tried to imagine and figure the whole stuff out. Had I had a best friend who supposedly cares for me more than anyone else would, a person who tries to keep me in a line without wounding my high aspiring wings, a person who will be there for me when I need him the most and yeah he exactly knows how to deal with my mood swings. “What would I do”, if I were her I thought.
The wind blew so gently that the night sky slowly lead me to sleep with nature singing its own lullaby. Hugging the quilt rather more closer to myself I feel deeper into sleep. I dreamt of Kane. He was my best friend in the senior year. We would always sneak out to have ice-creams late at night or go out for long walks where all we is chat. He was someone who used to know me better than I knew my self and he left no chances to bash me when he felt i needed one. I still remember the way he used to tease me, that brat never left any chance of teasing me. he used to tell me about his disaster dates and we would have awesome fun bitching about them. we have had some very good memories together but we also had some bitter memories. I knew he likes me the same way I do. but it was a mutual feeling which neither of us felt like taking on a level higher. I liked him, and I knew deep inside even he liked me. he liked me more than I can ever express. We kinda liked the feeling more. When you know the other person likes you the way you like him, you feel the world sings along with you. But we were scared to put our feelings out.
The tiny dew drops that condensed due to the chilled atmosphere drifted me back to reality. I still don’t know the reason why we never expressed the feelings out to each other. May be we just liked it that way. But who knows may be things would have been better which I just dared to tell him the truth back then. May be I would have enjoyed being in a relation with a person who would care for me more than I care for myself. But the reality is far bitter. He is far away in North Carolina and I kinda have no contacts with him now. I donno if he still has those same feelings for me which he once had.
Suddenly, as if understanding what I had to do, I called Kate up. She was still awake waiting for my call.
“Kate,if you really like him go how ever far it takes to just get him, don’t do the mistake I did ” I told without realizing what I was saying. “ I wish I was this stronger back then” I sighed.
“Clair, I knew you would say this. And there is something I need to tell you. Please don’t kill me.!” spoke the voice on the other side rather more excitdly than i expected it to be."I told you she still loves you.!" she screamed to someone i dint know
Confused I began to wonder what she really meant. “Kate, I don’t understand. What the hell are you speaking.? and who the hell is with you?"
“Sweetheart, I love you.I love you so much Clair” spoke a voice which I bealy recognized and then dumb struck I slipped the phone off its hook.. the phone kept swinging in the mid-air. It was Kane I realized suddenly and grabbed the phone rather more tight.
“Kane, is is is it yyyou.?” I spoke which was less than a whisper..
“Yes its me, I nearly lost you once and I don’t intend to repeat myself again. I want you for myself ,Clair and I am no fool to lose you this time.” Spoke the voice on the other end.
Dumbstruck, eyes wide open I was unable to belive my good luck would ever bump this way.The only guy i ever loved, my Kane is back.? Am i dreaming.? “Can we meet?” were the only words that came out without any further thoughts.
“In no time honey” was all I heard before the phone went dead and he was there outside my door bent on one knee with beautiful orchids in this hand…….
